The death of Jack Layton is so heartbreaking. I just believed in him so fully... How is it that we lose the one leader that actually gave us all such hope?

Sporty Summer

It has been a very sporty summer, baseball and volleyball three to four times a week!

Probably a good thing considering today I had three mini-cupcakes, and a lot of bread and cheese. But, hey. It's a birthday!

Girls

I want to live with girls.

I look at pictures of girl friends-- girls who live together and go out together every night and tell each other everything and are always there for each other... and it makes me so sad. Don't get me wrong-- I have some lovely girl friends. But we've never been really the kind of girls to gush to one another. To be girly and cute and lovey and fun.

I can talk about anything with Bee, and there are a few others I'm sure I could as well-- but I need more time to build those, or rebuild those.

I think there is something to be said for living with girls though. Girl bonding at its best. And I want that.

I think.

Study time

I'm working on an essay right now at Aaron's house. I have a cold. So does he.

He went downstairs to make himself a grilled cheese and to make me some soup. He just came in here with a bowl of soup on a plate, surrounded by baby carrots, two little pieces of toast and an "almond crisp".


What a love-y!!

"I'm so stuuuuuupid!"

School is going alright. Pretty okay.

But, its almost over... and I know everyone has to go through this, "okay, so what do I do now?" ...But I am freaking out.

The two years I have been gradually thinking more and more, "what do I want to do? What am I actually good at? What do I like? What can I afford..."

And... I have nothing. I have one thing. I want to act. I want to go to theatre school... but, I definitely don't have twenty thousand dollars. I pay for everything myself. Am I really going to take out a loan and start my life in debt? Am I too scared anyways? What if the school sucks. What if I am horrible? What if it amounts to nothing and then I've started my life fifteen thousand dollars in the hole.

If I had millions, I would go. For sure. But I would also go to teachers college, and do a masters... However, I obviously do not.

I don't know if it's really the money, or the fear... or a real... just... lack of passion for anything anymore.

I used to be so sure of myself.

Champagne Birthday

Please excuse the fact that this entry will literally sound like a little girl's diary entry...

Yesterday was my birthday!! Yaaay!

Aaron and I left for camping at Awenda on Monday and got home around 745 last night, so I got to spend half of my birthday camping/beaching and the other at home avec (most of) ma famille!

Camping was splendid of course-- beautiful weather and a great site. Buuuuut! Aaron cut his hand with an ax(e) [whichever you prefer] and we had to go to the local hospital so he could get three stitches!! Wooooo! Very exciting and scary- I almost threw up when he first showed me the wound. However- now he'll have a super badass scar.

At midnight on my birthday Aaron brought out a lovely little bottle of champagne and we toasted to my birthday at the campsite. It was adorable and delicious, actually. He made a very romantic little speech... it was perfect.

The morning brought a smiley wake-up and Aaron's first gift!! A beautiful silver bracelet! It's beautiful and just what I would have chosen. The last beach day was overcast, but warm and beautiful-- and Aaron actually got a pretty bad burn that day. He's in pain. And red as a tomaaaaaato!!! Oh! And we went into town to buy me a new copy of Lord of the Rings [well, we went in for the hospital first], so I also got to read that on our last beach day, which was vair fun. I feel slightly ridiculous, but also slightly badass reading it hahah.

Aaron's gifts to me:
1. Lovely bracelet
2. Pouch of deeelicious tea from DavidsTea
3. First Eminem CD ahaha
4. Adorable yellow (solar powered) reading lamp
5. Metric poster-- yet to arrive

And then this morning!!!
1. Fucking delicious breakfast
2. DavidsTea mug complete with a tea infuser
3. Aluminum free body shop deoderant
4. Also deeelicious tin of flavoured earl grey from DavidsTea

My mummy also got me some lovely jewelery, fancy hangers, a cupcake set, Rome and Paris travel books and expeeeeeeensive champagne! $40 for a little bottle! Oh mummy, you doll you! We felt very classy.

Oooh and I got two cakes! A delish stanley cake from my Mum and sister and a yummy yummy Marble Slab cake from Aar.

All in all, wonderful, wonderful birthday and today has been an excellent, excellent post birthday!!!

And to top it all off... my subscription to National Geographic came in!

Weekend Extravaganza

Had my first entire weekend off in what seems like forever!

Aaron and I went to Wonderland, we redecorated, we went bowling, went to America to shop, celebrated Dave's grad aaand played Super Smash bros every night before bed haha. It was fantastic. We haven't been able to do much lately because I've been so busy with work. It was also nice because Aaron started sork today!! It's only for a month, but now we'll both be busy busy.

So what about Canada day? Berry picking? Beach? Aaron and I are still planning. Hopefully we'll catch fireworks this time.

You know, I really do love this boy. It amazes me how much we laugh- we spend the majority of our time together laughing! And at nothing! At eachother- at dumb noises and stupid faces.

I told Aaron my writing idea and he loved it. He genuinely loved it! I've had this idea for years and never said anything to anyone. Grade 12 made me kind of... forget that I too like writing, and movies, and that I wanted to do creative things for a living. I guess the guys kind of inadvertently made me feel like it was their territory and that I had to find something else. Well- actually Wade always encouraged me to write.

Here goes!